Wow, it really has been a long time since I have posted on here. Not having Internet at home really limits my time of when I can get on.

Well, for those of you that have followed for awhile know that my husband and I tried for 2yrs to have a baby.

Well, I'm happy to say that I am PREGNANT!!! I am not 12 weeks pregnant and doing great. I feel beyond blessed to be pregnant with our little miracle baby. I have felt good for the most part. I do get tired very easily!!!

In the beginning I had a lot of food aversions but now I am fine to eat whatever. Some smells though still really get to me and upset my stomach. I am thankful to have never had morning sickness but now in the past week I seem to be getting an upset stomach a lot after eating. Not really sure what is happening with that.

My next appointment is Dec. 11th so I will update after that appointment!!!

I really want to use this blog now as a journal of the pregnancy and for when the baby comes.

Fertility

We, have now passed the TTC 2yr mark. Some days are a lot easier than others. There are times a week can go by and I do not even think about it and then there are days it is always on my mind. I have been through the sad/depression part of the whole 2yrs. but right now I think I am at the questioning/anger stage!! Like I find myself asking why does God give the Duggars' 19 children but I am praying for just ONE??? Why does God give all the unmarried, non-Christian, Hollywood people babies? We, are a Christian family and the child would be raised with loving parents in a great Christian household but still no baby? Why did God give me this HUGE heart for children when I cannot even get pregnant with our own?? These, are questions I find myself asking on those days I have too much time to think. I'm always asking why them and not me??? I think I need a facebook break because if I read about one more pregnancy announcement I might just go crazy!!! I just do not understand. I know that things happen all in God's perfect time but it still does not make the waiting time any easier!!!

I have an appointment Oct.26th and I am praying for answers!!!

Cancer

Wow, cancer is such an awful thing. I know many people that have fought it and continue to live many years but others that fight as hard as they can and the cancer still wins in the end.

A lady that my mother has worked with for 9yrs. just found out yesterday that there is NOTHING else that can be done for her husband's cancer. He has a rare kind of stomach cancer that only 32 other people have ever been diagnosed with in the US. Hollie and her husband Allen have three beautiful girls that are in 9th, 8th, and 6th grade. The oldest daughter told her mother the other day that she was sad her daddy would never walk her down the aisle. The family has been out to M.D. Anderson to get different opinions and still the same that nothing can be done. I saw my mom yesterday and she just cried and cried. She, is having a really hard time with this because this in one of her best-friend's family going through this. Hollie and her oldest daughter catered mine and Michael's wedding. Hollie owned her own catering business many years ago and is an amazing cook.

The pre-school is raising money really quickly because Allen's wish is to go to Hawaii before he dies. I mean how sad to go someone knowing this is the last trip you will ever share together. I cannot even imagine what Hollie, and her children are thinking. I cannot even imagine knowing what Allen is thinking either. Just so sad.

If you are a praying person I know this family can use your prayers. I will keep everyone updated.

Fall

I thought I would do a post on my favorite things about fall.

1. I love the color change of the leaves.

2. The crisp morning/evening air.

3. Snuggled up on the couch with a blanket and good movie to watch.

4. SEC especially Auburn football!!!

5. Starbucks caramel apple cider

6. Going to the pumpkin patch

7. Decorating the house with fall stuff and planting mums.

8. All the cute little trick-or-treaters

9. The start of the new season for my favorite tv shows.

What are some of your favorite things about fall???

Habits

Do you have that one habit that you are totally embarrassed of? I have two that I am really embarrassed about.

1. I am 28yrs old and I still bite my nails!!! I have tried many of times to quit. The longest I ever go is if I have a manicure done for a special occasion and my nails look pretty. I got my nails done for a friends wedding and I kept from biting them for two weeks and they look so pretty. Then, it was back to biting them again. It is something I totally wish I would just stop but when I get nerves, worried, stressed, etc. it is the first thing that I do.

2. This may sound silly to some but the older I have gotten the more it has bothered me. I used to be obsessed with celebrity trash magazines. I used to read People, Us Weekly, and OK like they were going out of style. I would always stop at the store on Friday and buy them. I am working on this though because I realize it is just not healthy for me to read them all the time. I was getting jealous of the money, clothes, skinny bodies, babies, ability to adopt so easy, etc... I have to say I cannot even remember the last time I bought one of these magazines. My mom gets People and gives them to me. I had 4 that I took to the beach with me and I just flipped through a few of them and did not even read an article. My interest is going away and I am glad to say I have not subscriptions to any of them!!! I subscribe to more wholesome magazines now. I get Family Circle, Southern Living, Country Living, Real Simple, Good Housekeeping, etc. I just feel bad that the paparazzi follows those people around everywhere. I am not saying I look down on those that read them I am just saying for me I feel it has been a good choice to take a step back from it all.

Hope Everyone Has A Great Weekend!!!!

Beach

Oh how I love the beach and vacation. I love vacation just for the simple fact of being able to just be. We, are at the beach now and the weather is awful but I am not letting that put a damper on my mood.

1. I love the beach for its sound. I just sat in a really comfy chair yesterday and today and read an entire book. While, getting to listen to the waves crash in the ocean.

2. I am able to get on the internet without having to use my Iphone (which is total pain for somethings) or going to my grandparents house. Having internet at the beach is a luxury we do not have at home.

3. I so enjoyed staying in my pjs until 2:30 today when I finally decided to take a shower.

4. I have enjoyed laying in the bed watching movies with my husband which is something we no longer do at home since our tv kicked the bucket.

5. I enjoy sitting out on our balcony eating dinner and watching the dolphins play in the distant.

6. I enjoy the time with my husband without all the stresses of home.

Oh, I so enjoy vacation even if it is rainy!!!

Random Tidbits

1. I have not been able to find a gyno that I like in a few years. Well, the obgyn/gyno that I LOVED quit practicing a few years back to stay at home with her children. Well, I NEED to go to a obgyn but have been putting it off. My husband finally gave me the kick in the butt that I need to find a dr. I have been putting it off because the past two I have went to I did not like one bit. I just want a loving, caring, understanding, etc... dr. You women understand what I am talking about. So, finally today after a conversation with my husband I looked up our plan and what obgyns are covered. My favorite DR. is practicing again!!!! I was so happy I could have gone out and danced in the rain!!! I did not but trust me I could have. I have an appointment scheduled and I am super excited!!! Finding out that she is practicing gives me lots of hope!

2. I am SO ready for vacation. We, leave in a few days and I could not be happier. I am ready to go and just relax and enjoy the beach. I am hoping and praying it does not rain the entire time we are there though.

3. Some of our friends will be joining us later in the week at the beach. It is awesome!!! Michael and I get time to ourselves and about the time we are done staring at each other. Our awesome friends will be coming down.

4. I totally did something so stupid the other day. I cleaned out the fridge after the trash had run for the week and now we are leaving on vacation. What was I thinking????

5. I started work for a new family today. I am now working for 3 different families 3 days a week. I LOVED the kids I watched today. It is a brother and a sister and they were a blast. After, having watched an only child for so many years it is fun to be watching siblings.

Ta Ta For Now