Wow, where has this year gone???!!! 2009 has been a year of ups and downs but I have to say it has been a blessed year for us.
Just some highlights of our 2009
1. Michael took a new job in March!!! We, feel blessed God provided him with this job and are excited about the doors it might open for his career in the future.
2. I did the hardest thing I have ever done in leaving Piper in August. Some days I still cry that I do not see her every day. I enjoyed being her nanny for 3yrs and leaving was so hard.
3. We, took an awesome trip to the beach with great friends. Enjoyed our time as a couple and with our friends. Nothing is more relaxing than a day at the beach.
4. The church we had fallen in love with went through some changes that we did not agree with. So, we are still looking for a new church to call home. I miss some of the people but I know God has a place waiting for us at a new church.
5. In August I started losing all faith in God and got really depressed. I knew the mark of two years of TTC was creeping up on us and had lots of anger towards God. Michael grew worried and felt helpless. I made a appointment with a dr. to start the process of discussing fertility options.
6. On October 19th, I took 5 home pregnancy tests and confirmed that I was pregnant!!! We, were both really thrilled. Michael was beyond excited and happy. I was more shocked and nervous.
7. Michael, my Grandfather, and I traveled to Nashville for Thanksgiving to meet up with Aunt, Uncle and cousin. This Thanksgiving is one of my all time favorite Thanksgivings. I am hoping it becomes a tradition to travel somewhere with them each Thanksgiving.
8. Christmas was great. I feel blessed to have such an awesome husband and family who spoiled me with great gifts for Christmas.
9. We, are now in NC to celebrate Christmas with more family and ring in the New Year with them. I feel blessed with all the family we have.
Praying everyone has a blessed 2010.
Thursday, December 31, 2009
2009 in Review
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Monday, December 21, 2009
13week Appointment
So, I had my big "ob work up appointment" on December 11th. Everything went fine!!! They are happy with my weight for now. I did have some concerns about the bleeding. The Dr. told me that I just have a really sensitive cervix. When, she did the exam I bled like crazy and for a few days after. She, told us that is was nothing to be concerned with and that everything looked fine. Got to hear jellybean's heartbeat. Jellybean's heartbeat was 165 which is exactly what is was the last time. The fun part came at the very end which was having to give 8 vials of blood. I had not eaten lunch yet so they took the blood on a very empty stomach. I got the worst headache afterwards too. I went home and took a really long nap and still woke up with the same headache. My next appointment is January 6th. Which, they will go over the blood work and any concerns I might have.
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Thursday, December 3, 2009
Wow, it really has been a long time since I have posted on here. Not having Internet at home really limits my time of when I can get on.
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Thursday, October 15, 2009
Fertility
We, have now passed the TTC 2yr mark. Some days are a lot easier than others. There are times a week can go by and I do not even think about it and then there are days it is always on my mind. I have been through the sad/depression part of the whole 2yrs. but right now I think I am at the questioning/anger stage!! Like I find myself asking why does God give the Duggars' 19 children but I am praying for just ONE??? Why does God give all the unmarried, non-Christian, Hollywood people babies? We, are a Christian family and the child would be raised with loving parents in a great Christian household but still no baby? Why did God give me this HUGE heart for children when I cannot even get pregnant with our own?? These, are questions I find myself asking on those days I have too much time to think. I'm always asking why them and not me??? I think I need a facebook break because if I read about one more pregnancy announcement I might just go crazy!!! I just do not understand. I know that things happen all in God's perfect time but it still does not make the waiting time any easier!!!
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Thursday, October 8, 2009
Cancer
Wow, cancer is such an awful thing. I know many people that have fought it and continue to live many years but others that fight as hard as they can and the cancer still wins in the end.
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Thursday, October 1, 2009
Fall
I thought I would do a post on my favorite things about fall.
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Friday, September 25, 2009
Habits
Do you have that one habit that you are totally embarrassed of? I have two that I am really embarrassed about.
1. I am 28yrs old and I still bite my nails!!! I have tried many of times to quit. The longest I ever go is if I have a manicure done for a special occasion and my nails look pretty. I got my nails done for a friends wedding and I kept from biting them for two weeks and they look so pretty. Then, it was back to biting them again. It is something I totally wish I would just stop but when I get nerves, worried, stressed, etc. it is the first thing that I do.
2. This may sound silly to some but the older I have gotten the more it has bothered me. I used to be obsessed with celebrity trash magazines. I used to read People, Us Weekly, and OK like they were going out of style. I would always stop at the store on Friday and buy them. I am working on this though because I realize it is just not healthy for me to read them all the time. I was getting jealous of the money, clothes, skinny bodies, babies, ability to adopt so easy, etc... I have to say I cannot even remember the last time I bought one of these magazines. My mom gets People and gives them to me. I had 4 that I took to the beach with me and I just flipped through a few of them and did not even read an article. My interest is going away and I am glad to say I have not subscriptions to any of them!!! I subscribe to more wholesome magazines now. I get Family Circle, Southern Living, Country Living, Real Simple, Good Housekeeping, etc. I just feel bad that the paparazzi follows those people around everywhere. I am not saying I look down on those that read them I am just saying for me I feel it has been a good choice to take a step back from it all.
Hope Everyone Has A Great Weekend!!!!
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Monday, September 14, 2009
Beach
Oh how I love the beach and vacation. I love vacation just for the simple fact of being able to just be. We, are at the beach now and the weather is awful but I am not letting that put a damper on my mood.
1. I love the beach for its sound. I just sat in a really comfy chair yesterday and today and read an entire book. While, getting to listen to the waves crash in the ocean.
2. I am able to get on the internet without having to use my Iphone (which is total pain for somethings) or going to my grandparents house. Having internet at the beach is a luxury we do not have at home.
3. I so enjoyed staying in my pjs until 2:30 today when I finally decided to take a shower.
4. I have enjoyed laying in the bed watching movies with my husband which is something we no longer do at home since our tv kicked the bucket.
5. I enjoy sitting out on our balcony eating dinner and watching the dolphins play in the distant.
6. I enjoy the time with my husband without all the stresses of home.
Oh, I so enjoy vacation even if it is rainy!!!
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Wednesday, September 9, 2009
Random Tidbits
1. I have not been able to find a gyno that I like in a few years. Well, the obgyn/gyno that I LOVED quit practicing a few years back to stay at home with her children. Well, I NEED to go to a obgyn but have been putting it off. My husband finally gave me the kick in the butt that I need to find a dr. I have been putting it off because the past two I have went to I did not like one bit. I just want a loving, caring, understanding, etc... dr. You women understand what I am talking about. So, finally today after a conversation with my husband I looked up our plan and what obgyns are covered. My favorite DR. is practicing again!!!! I was so happy I could have gone out and danced in the rain!!! I did not but trust me I could have. I have an appointment scheduled and I am super excited!!! Finding out that she is practicing gives me lots of hope!
2. I am SO ready for vacation. We, leave in a few days and I could not be happier. I am ready to go and just relax and enjoy the beach. I am hoping and praying it does not rain the entire time we are there though.
3. Some of our friends will be joining us later in the week at the beach. It is awesome!!! Michael and I get time to ourselves and about the time we are done staring at each other. Our awesome friends will be coming down.
4. I totally did something so stupid the other day. I cleaned out the fridge after the trash had run for the week and now we are leaving on vacation. What was I thinking????
5. I started work for a new family today. I am now working for 3 different families 3 days a week. I LOVED the kids I watched today. It is a brother and a sister and they were a blast. After, having watched an only child for so many years it is fun to be watching siblings.
Ta Ta For Now
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Wednesday, September 2, 2009
Duggars'
I will be honest I am not sure what to think of Michelle Duggar being pregnant with her 19th child. So, I am just going to post some of my random thoughts.
1. As someone who is having trouble getting pregnant I wonder why God keeps blessing her with children and not answering my husband and I's prayers. Yes, I know that in God's perfect time it will happen but it does not make the wait any easier.
2. I really do not know how I feel about the buddy system. I agree with children helping about but it seems to me that the older girls really raise the younger children.
3. How the heck do they afford insurance for that many children???!!!
4. I also worry about her health. I would hate for her uterus to rupture from being so stretched so many times and the fact of all the c-sections that she has had.
5. I also worry as she gets older her chances go up for having a special needs child.
6. I also wonder if each child every really knows there parents. I mean with that many children I do not see them having a lot of time to spend one on one time with each child.
7. Two things they are doing I really agree with is raising them to know Jesus and monitored tv time.
So, those are just some of my thoughts. Hope everyone is doing well.
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Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Scripture
I went to visit a friend today that I have not seen in awhile. She, has a beautiful little girl who is 2yrs old. We, were sitting at the table having lunch and my friend said to her daughter tell Courtney what we learned last night. So, she thought for a minute and then she started saying a scripture verse. The one she knows is "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." It gave me goosebumps listening to her say it. I just think it is so awesome that my friend is raising her daughter to know who Jesus is. She, was saying that she noticed her daughter had memorized a book that she has read to her a lot and she thought I can teach her scripture. So, that was the first verse she has learned. It just really warmed my heart. It makes me happy to know that there are still people out there raising there children to be Christians and know who Jesus is.
I know from working in the nanny world that fewer and fewer people are teaching there children about Jesus and raising them in a church. Growing up I never really had friends that I went to school with. I had my church friends and most of them did not attend the school that I went to. I enjoyed all my time growing up in the church and going to the youth activities. I will never forget the friends I made and all the trips I went on with the church. I even worked in the nursery at church for many years. I went back tonight to work in a nursery and it was a blast. Just like old times and like I never left. That church will always hold very special memories for me.
I still am so grateful that my childhood minister married my husband and I. Having him marry me was so special too me. He married my parents, my aunt, did my grandfather's funeral, baptized me, and confirmed me. I still see him occasionally and he really warms my heart every time I see him.
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Wednesday, August 12, 2009
Changes
I have never been one that deals with change well. Just ask my mom!! I have to take each change in stride and find a "new normal" for myself to get through whatever change happens to be taking place.
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Monday, August 3, 2009
Good Bye
Why oh why are good-byes so hard. This week is not going to be an easy week at all for me. I have spent the past three years of my life being a nanny for a precious little girl. I am going to miss her like something out of this world. I know I will still keep in touch with the family but it will not be the same. I will not be a part of her everyday life like I have been for 3yrs. I have traveled with this family. Oh my goodness just typing this out makes me cry!!! I am just going to do a list of things I am going to miss so I never ever forget our time together.
1. I am going to miss going to the bank with her on Monday mornings when I deposit my check. We, always get blue lollipops that turn our lips and tongues blue. Then, we chase each other around the house pretending to be blue monsters. I was so sad today knowing it was my last time I would ever do that with her.
2. I am going to miss her telling me at random times "you are the best nanny ever."
3. I am going to miss her random hugs and kisses through out the day.
4. I will miss picking her up from school and being so excited to tell me everything that happened.
5. I will miss teaching her things and the excitement she gets to show her parents what she learned in "school time" that day.
6. I am going to miss all the mom's that I have made friends with through the various different playgroups we have been a part of through the years.
7. I am going to miss playing pirates, bug tea party, monsters, aliens, and board games with her.
These, are just a few things I am going to miss. I will be praying for her as she makes the transition into all day school in the fall.
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Monday, July 27, 2009
"Blog World"
I love the "blog world" and reading blogs. I will admit that I get really attached to a lot of the stories and families whose blogs I read. If someone does not update for a few days I wonder if everything is ok with that family.
I was telling someone a few weeks ago about Stellan from "mycharmingkids" and her response to me was "wow, you have a huge heart of compassion." She, thought it was amazing that I had so much love for a child and family that I did not even "know." She, then went on to tell me that I would be a great candidate for adopting a child since I have so much love and compassion for a child that I do not even know. She, told me that just talking to me about the child I work for and hearing me talk about Stellan. She, said "your future children are going to be so blessed to have you as a mother." It really just brought tears to my eyes because I guess I do not see those things in myself. I just feel it is who I am and do not really think about it. At, times when I lose my patience with certain things I wonder if I have the patience to be a mother. I guess the old saying is true "you are your worst enemy."
I think the "blog world" really makes the world a smaller place. I know when I was engaged and my wedding day was coming up. I was venting about some stuff on an old blog of mine. A girl that read my blog offered to help me with my invitations. So, we met up to do my invitations and she happened to know someone on my guest list. We, are best friends to this day and I do not know what my life would be without her as a part of it. She, and her husband are both amazing christian people and fun to do things with. When, people ask how we met it is like "we met on the internet through a blog." I feel the blog world brings people together from all walks of life. I think it is amazing that so many people from around the world are praying for Stellan and various other children whose parents have blogs.
I mean how comforting to know that you can have a prayer request and put it out in the blog world and have people from all over praying for your situation. Being in the blog world really renews my faith in the world just a bit.
I hope everyone has a blessed week.
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Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Simple Life
Michael and I currently do not have internet at home anymore. (I am typing this from the computer at my grandparents house. ) We, have been really looking at ways to cut back on our monthly expenses on things we really do not need. So, Bellsouth made us mad for the million and one time so we said fine and had the service disconnected. At times I do miss it but it really is not the end of the world. I can use the internet at my grandparents house, library, or on my Iphone. I know that we will have to get it back again in January when Michael goes back to school for his masters but for now it is not that bad. We, are also currently thinking of getting rid of DirectTV but our contract is not up yet. I mean really I know I just watch mostly reality tv trash and I can use a detox for all the crap that I watch on tv. We, do blockbuster online and could just continue to get movies from there or we are looking into Netflix because it is cheaper. If you ever want to get a laugh tell someone you do not have internet at home and are thinking of getting rid of tv. Oh the looks you get are hilarious!!!
I personally think those are things we can and will live even if we do not have them. I just think about how we can further God's kingdom with that money. That is money that could be used to buy groceries for someone in need or gas in someone's car so they can get to work. Heck, money we can put towards paying off a bill that we have.
I am personally excited about the things getting rid of them might for our marriage relationship and even our spiritual relationship. I personally see us spending more time talking, do yard work, reading, etc... just using our time better than sitting in front of the tv or computer.
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Saturday, July 18, 2009
Christian Witness
I have nannied for a family now for 3yrs that are not Christians and do not believe at all. I will be leaving this family in a few short weeks because the little girl is going to school. As the time keeps going by so quickly I wonder if I have done my part in being a Christian Witness to them. I look at things I might could have done and things I could have done better. I personally feel that I have failed since the family still does not have faith.
I have done bible study work at there house while she is having her "Disney Movie" down time in the afternoons and Piper has always had an interest in what I am doing. I try to explain things to her on her level and she wanted a Bible for her so I had a children's bible in our house from my days of teaching Sunday School and I plan on giving it to her when I leave. I am going to write a special message in it to her from me.
The one thing the Mother told me a couple of months ago that will probably stick with me forever was that one night Piper was in her room not going to sleep and just talking. So, her mother went in the room and asked her what she was doing and she said "I am talking to God like Nanny Courtney does." I might not have made an impact on the parents but that let me know that I have planted that tiniest seed in her life.
I will still always wonder if I did what God intended for me to do as a witness to this family.
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Thursday, July 9, 2009
God's Will
I am in a bible study with a few other women from our church. We, just started a new study this week that I am super excited about. It is a Women of Faith Book and it is the "Knowing God's Will For Your Life." I am really ready to dive deep into this study and prayer because I am at a huge crossroads in my life right now. I honestly for the first time in my life have know clue what I am doing.
I have been a nanny for many many years now. The little girl I now nanny for will be doing to an all day pre-k 4 program in the fall. So, there goes my job!! I have been with this family for 3yrs now and I truly love the little girl and her family. Piper just melts my heart with the sweet things she says to me on a daily basis.
My will for my life at this point would have been to be pregnant!!! I just assumed I would be pregnant before or right up until I left them. Well, that has not happened so I am having to come up with a "Plan B." Which, it really is not a "plan b" because I feel had I been in God's word I would probably have more direction than what I do now.
So, I am really excited about learning about God's will and praying for God's will for my life. I know that everything is in God's hands and in his time. He knows the desires of my heart but might have other things he wants me to experience before becoming a mother. I know I have a lot to learn and ways to improve in the wife catgory.
Oh, and if you know of anyone that lives in my area that is in need of a nanny or knows someone I am looking!!!
Blessings,
Courtney
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Saturday, July 4, 2009
Michael
I know there are a lot of times in our marriage I have taken my husband for granted. I love him more than he will ever know. He works really hard to support us and is always there for me in prayer. Sometimes, he is not very vocal on us not having had a child yet but the other day he said something that really just hurt me. He said " I have never in my life failed at something so miserably." I really thought right then and there I was going to just start crying!!!
This weekend I spent Thursday and most of the day Friday scrapbooking with some friends from church and then there friends. I had a blast getting to know each of them better and just learning a lot from them. I LOVE to scrapbook and I have been behind the times for awhile now. Well, Wal-Mart had a great deal on the Cricut so my wonderful husband let me splurge and get one. I LOVE it!!! It took me a little over an hour but I have officially made my first sticker! I am so proud of myself and I cannot wait to see many more creations. I have almost completed all the beach pages from our trip last year. Then, I am going to start on the wedding album. It has been two years now so I figure it is time!!! If you cannot find me or do not hear from me for awhile I can assure you that I am using my new scrapbooking tools!!! Thanks ladies for all the good ideas. Thanks a million Honey for letting me get the stuff!!!
Oh, also when I can home last night. Michael had cleaned out the cat box, freezer, fridge, and picked up the living room. I am so lucky to be married to such a wonderful man!!!
Blessings,
Courtney
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Friday, July 3, 2009
Random Tidbits
1. My mom, my friend Kat, and her mom all went and saw "The Proposal" the other night. I LOVED it. Probably, one of my favorite chick-flicks. I will be buying it on dvd when it comes out.
2. Piper now has her casts off!!! It is taking her some getting used to walking on her flat feet. She, told me yesterday that her feet feel funny. The surgery was a HUGE success though because no more tippy toes.
3. Kat is a nanny also and we took the kids to see a Puppet Show the other day and it is a puppet show really geared towards pre-school aged children. Well, half way through the show one of the puppets said "dumbest." I mean seriously was that totally necessary???
4. I scrapbooked last night with some awesome ladies from the church and various other places and it was a lot of fun. I have LOTS I can learn from them. My scrapbooks are so boring in comparison to there's.
5. I am SO ready for the beach!!! September cannot come soon enough.
Hope everyone has a very blessed 4th of July.
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Monday, June 15, 2009
Iphone
I do not remember life without my iphone!!! I LOVE it!!! I am still learning a lot about it but for the most part really enjoy it. I thought I would share a few of my favorite apps. and others could add there favorites.
1. Facebook- This was the first app. I put on my phone and I LOVE it!!! It is easy to keep up with happenings on facebook through out the day.
2. The Weather Channel- So, easy to get the weather and be able to make outside plans without having to get on the computer.
3. MLB- I enjoy baseball and like being able to get scores to all the games.
4. Yahoo- Easy way to get news tidbits
5. Around Me - Is AWESOME!!! It gives you addresses and phone numbers to just about anything around you. From, banks, restaurants, parks, shops, etc.. I use this app a lot.
6. Shazam - You can "tag" a song on the radio and it will give the name of song and artist and save to a purchase list for itunes.
7. Directv- If I happen to be out and about and forget to record something I can set it up from my phone.
8. Flixster- Gives move times for theaters in your area.
9. QuickTip- Put in bill total and gives tip amount based on what percent you tip.
10. Restaurants- Gives food nutrition for various restaurants
11. Snaptell- If you are out and about to buy something but and to compare a price. You take a picture of it and will give you a price of that item at different stores or websites.
12. People- I like my celebrity gossip and this one keeps it all up to date.
So, these are just a few of my favorite apps. What are some of yours??
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Friday, June 12, 2009
About Me
I guess it is time for me to introduce myself a little. I read various blogs and have always commented but never really blogged. I just feel boring in comparison to the blogs I read. So, figured I would just start blogging so those that are interested in knowing a little more about me could read.
So, a little about me. My name is Courtney and I married the most wonderful man Michael in April 2007. I could not imagine my life without him. He is an amazing man who I am so thankful that God placed in my life. God always amazes me because I have always said I would never date anyone younger than me and then I married someone 3yrs younger than me!! I say that he keeps me young!!! Michael and I met in a sociology class in college.
I did not really like college at all. I did really well in most of my classes but was not enjoying it in the least bit. I had a drive to work!!! I have been a nanny since I was about 21ish. Gosh, I have done it so long it is hard to remember!!! I started out part-time nanny and still going to school. Then, I when I decided I didn't want to do the college thing anymore I started doing it full-time.
I currently watch a beautiful 4yr old little girl named Piper. She, is a miracle from God. I will have to tell her story sometime. I have been with Piper full-time since August 2006. My time with them will run up in August of this year. I am so sad to be leaving her. She, will be going to an all day pre-K 4yr old class in the fall. She, says some of the funniest things and always melts my heart.
My husband and I have been trying to get pregnant for 20months now. As, each month passes it does not get any easier. I know that God has great plans for us. I long to be a mother and have a child of my own to call me Mommy. It is something that we along with our families and friends are praying for with us. I know that God's timing is the best. I will share more on things we have tired and stuff as the blog goes on.
Michael and I are both Christians and are really involved in our church. We, love our church family so much. Our minister will be leaving to serve at another church in a few weeks. We, have been really sadden by this news but know that God has great plans for our church.
So, that is a little bit about me. I hope this helps in getting to know me a little more than just the comments that I leave.
Hope everyone has a blessed weekend!!!
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