Gestational Diabetes

So, I've been diagnosed with gestational diabetes. Hearing the news from the nurse was really hard for me. I got off the phone with her and cried for almost two hours. I just felt it was all my fault that my body was failing this baby and had I not been overweight before getting pregnant than I would not be in this position. I had a lot of self hate that day. I went on with my day and got a more positive attitude about things as time went on. I know that I can do this. I know that I will do whatever it takes to bring Jellybean into this world healthy. I've been following the new eating plan for the past two days. I'm doing really well on it. My after meal numbers are always really good but for some reason my morning fasting number is always really off. I have a dr's appointment on Monday so I guess that will be something I go over with the Dr. I just get frustrated in the mornings with that number when I do everything I'm supposed to and still get a bad reading in the morning. I just want to do everything right for my health and for Jellybean's health.

Michael and I got to see precious Jellybean on Friday. Jellybean was just happy and moving around. Jellybean's kidneys are doing really well. One kidney is now normal and the other kidney is just 0.1 over in the fluid level numbers. So, Jellybean is growing into his/her kidneys.

I really wish that Jellybean would move a lot so that Michael could feel him/her moving. I think it would be really neat for him to experience.