Habits

Do you have that one habit that you are totally embarrassed of? I have two that I am really embarrassed about.

1. I am 28yrs old and I still bite my nails!!! I have tried many of times to quit. The longest I ever go is if I have a manicure done for a special occasion and my nails look pretty. I got my nails done for a friends wedding and I kept from biting them for two weeks and they look so pretty. Then, it was back to biting them again. It is something I totally wish I would just stop but when I get nerves, worried, stressed, etc. it is the first thing that I do.

2. This may sound silly to some but the older I have gotten the more it has bothered me. I used to be obsessed with celebrity trash magazines. I used to read People, Us Weekly, and OK like they were going out of style. I would always stop at the store on Friday and buy them. I am working on this though because I realize it is just not healthy for me to read them all the time. I was getting jealous of the money, clothes, skinny bodies, babies, ability to adopt so easy, etc... I have to say I cannot even remember the last time I bought one of these magazines. My mom gets People and gives them to me. I had 4 that I took to the beach with me and I just flipped through a few of them and did not even read an article. My interest is going away and I am glad to say I have not subscriptions to any of them!!! I subscribe to more wholesome magazines now. I get Family Circle, Southern Living, Country Living, Real Simple, Good Housekeeping, etc. I just feel bad that the paparazzi follows those people around everywhere. I am not saying I look down on those that read them I am just saying for me I feel it has been a good choice to take a step back from it all.

Hope Everyone Has A Great Weekend!!!!

Beach

Oh how I love the beach and vacation. I love vacation just for the simple fact of being able to just be. We, are at the beach now and the weather is awful but I am not letting that put a damper on my mood.

1. I love the beach for its sound. I just sat in a really comfy chair yesterday and today and read an entire book. While, getting to listen to the waves crash in the ocean.

2. I am able to get on the internet without having to use my Iphone (which is total pain for somethings) or going to my grandparents house. Having internet at the beach is a luxury we do not have at home.

3. I so enjoyed staying in my pjs until 2:30 today when I finally decided to take a shower.

4. I have enjoyed laying in the bed watching movies with my husband which is something we no longer do at home since our tv kicked the bucket.

5. I enjoy sitting out on our balcony eating dinner and watching the dolphins play in the distant.

6. I enjoy the time with my husband without all the stresses of home.

Oh, I so enjoy vacation even if it is rainy!!!

Random Tidbits

1. I have not been able to find a gyno that I like in a few years. Well, the obgyn/gyno that I LOVED quit practicing a few years back to stay at home with her children. Well, I NEED to go to a obgyn but have been putting it off. My husband finally gave me the kick in the butt that I need to find a dr. I have been putting it off because the past two I have went to I did not like one bit. I just want a loving, caring, understanding, etc... dr. You women understand what I am talking about. So, finally today after a conversation with my husband I looked up our plan and what obgyns are covered. My favorite DR. is practicing again!!!! I was so happy I could have gone out and danced in the rain!!! I did not but trust me I could have. I have an appointment scheduled and I am super excited!!! Finding out that she is practicing gives me lots of hope!

2. I am SO ready for vacation. We, leave in a few days and I could not be happier. I am ready to go and just relax and enjoy the beach. I am hoping and praying it does not rain the entire time we are there though.

3. Some of our friends will be joining us later in the week at the beach. It is awesome!!! Michael and I get time to ourselves and about the time we are done staring at each other. Our awesome friends will be coming down.

4. I totally did something so stupid the other day. I cleaned out the fridge after the trash had run for the week and now we are leaving on vacation. What was I thinking????

5. I started work for a new family today. I am now working for 3 different families 3 days a week. I LOVED the kids I watched today. It is a brother and a sister and they were a blast. After, having watched an only child for so many years it is fun to be watching siblings.

Ta Ta For Now

Duggars'

I will be honest I am not sure what to think of Michelle Duggar being pregnant with her 19th child. So, I am just going to post some of my random thoughts.

1. As someone who is having trouble getting pregnant I wonder why God keeps blessing her with children and not answering my husband and I's prayers. Yes, I know that in God's perfect time it will happen but it does not make the wait any easier.

2. I really do not know how I feel about the buddy system. I agree with children helping about but it seems to me that the older girls really raise the younger children.

3. How the heck do they afford insurance for that many children???!!!

4. I also worry about her health. I would hate for her uterus to rupture from being so stretched so many times and the fact of all the c-sections that she has had.

5. I also worry as she gets older her chances go up for having a special needs child.

6. I also wonder if each child every really knows there parents. I mean with that many children I do not see them having a lot of time to spend one on one time with each child.

7. Two things they are doing I really agree with is raising them to know Jesus and monitored tv time.

So, those are just some of my thoughts. Hope everyone is doing well.

Scripture

I went to visit a friend today that I have not seen in awhile. She, has a beautiful little girl who is 2yrs old. We, were sitting at the table having lunch and my friend said to her daughter tell Courtney what we learned last night. So, she thought for a minute and then she started saying a scripture verse. The one she knows is "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." It gave me goosebumps listening to her say it. I just think it is so awesome that my friend is raising her daughter to know who Jesus is. She, was saying that she noticed her daughter had memorized a book that she has read to her a lot and she thought I can teach her scripture. So, that was the first verse she has learned. It just really warmed my heart. It makes me happy to know that there are still people out there raising there children to be Christians and know who Jesus is.

I know from working in the nanny world that fewer and fewer people are teaching there children about Jesus and raising them in a church. Growing up I never really had friends that I went to school with. I had my church friends and most of them did not attend the school that I went to. I enjoyed all my time growing up in the church and going to the youth activities. I will never forget the friends I made and all the trips I went on with the church. I even worked in the nursery at church for many years. I went back tonight to work in a nursery and it was a blast. Just like old times and like I never left. That church will always hold very special memories for me.

I still am so grateful that my childhood minister married my husband and I. Having him marry me was so special too me. He married my parents, my aunt, did my grandfather's funeral, baptized me, and confirmed me. I still see him occasionally and he really warms my heart every time I see him.

Changes

I have never been one that deals with change well. Just ask my mom!! I have to take each change in stride and find a "new normal" for myself to get through whatever change happens to be taking place. 

This, leaving Piper and not being with her every day has been a huge change for me. Yesterday, I was home alone and it was so strange. To not talk to anyone and just be in total peace. I was very productive and got a lot done during the day but it was lonely. My husband did come home for lunch which it was nice to see him.

I know that God always has a plan for me and us as a couple but sometimes for me it is hard to see past "the change." I know that he always provides. When, we bought our house I was beyond stressed out because it was a huge change for us and I had so many emotions. God was always there with us through the change and I know he is here for me know through this change. 

Michael and I were talking and sometimes for us it is hard to see what God wants for us because we have our own plans mapped for ourselves in our head. I know that God will open the door for me with what I am really supposed to be doing with my time now that I am not working. But the questions keep coming!! Am I supposed to work full-time, part-time, volunteer, talk to a dr. about getting pregnant, go on vacation, how am I supposed to find  job, can I trust a family I found of the internet, and etc.... Those are the questions that are running through my head right now. 

I know that I just need to keep myself in prayer and God will show me the way. Although,  I will admit it is a lot easier said than done!!! 

Good Bye

Why oh why are good-byes so hard. This week is not going to be an easy week at all for me. I have spent the past three years of my life being a nanny for a precious little girl. I am going to miss her like something out of this world. I know I will still keep in touch with the family but it will not be the same. I will not be a part of her everyday life like I have been for 3yrs. I have traveled with this family. Oh my goodness just typing this out makes me cry!!! I am just going to do a list of things I am going to miss so I never ever forget our time together.

1. I am going to miss going to the bank with her on Monday mornings when I deposit my check. We, always get blue lollipops that turn our lips and tongues blue. Then, we chase each other around the house pretending to be blue monsters. I was so sad today knowing it was my last time I would ever do that with her.

2. I am going to miss her telling me at random times "you are the best nanny ever."

3. I am going to miss her random hugs and kisses through out the day.

4. I will miss picking her up from school and being so excited to tell me everything that happened.

5. I will miss teaching her things and the excitement she gets to show her parents what she learned in "school time" that day.

6. I am going to miss all the mom's that I have made friends with through the various different playgroups we have been a part of through the years.

7. I am going to miss playing pirates, bug tea party, monsters, aliens, and board games with her.

These, are just a few things I am going to miss. I will be praying for her as she makes the transition into all day school in the fall.