Gestational Diabetes

So, I've been diagnosed with gestational diabetes. Hearing the news from the nurse was really hard for me. I got off the phone with her and cried for almost two hours. I just felt it was all my fault that my body was failing this baby and had I not been overweight before getting pregnant than I would not be in this position. I had a lot of self hate that day. I went on with my day and got a more positive attitude about things as time went on. I know that I can do this. I know that I will do whatever it takes to bring Jellybean into this world healthy. I've been following the new eating plan for the past two days. I'm doing really well on it. My after meal numbers are always really good but for some reason my morning fasting number is always really off. I have a dr's appointment on Monday so I guess that will be something I go over with the Dr. I just get frustrated in the mornings with that number when I do everything I'm supposed to and still get a bad reading in the morning. I just want to do everything right for my health and for Jellybean's health.

Michael and I got to see precious Jellybean on Friday. Jellybean was just happy and moving around. Jellybean's kidneys are doing really well. One kidney is now normal and the other kidney is just 0.1 over in the fluid level numbers. So, Jellybean is growing into his/her kidneys.

I really wish that Jellybean would move a lot so that Michael could feel him/her moving. I think it would be really neat for him to experience.

Books

Oh, how I cannot wait to ready to Jellybean. I'm a huge reader and have always had a huge LOVE for books. I have always said that a child can have too many toys but a child can never have too many books. I remember sitting in Piper's bed and just reading to her for an hour. I cannot wait to be able to do that with Jellybean. I've already started a book collection for our precious Jellybean. Oh, the joy and happiness it brings me to be able to buy Jellybean books.

I thought I would list a few of my favorite children's books. That are either already in Jellybeans book collection or will soon be in his/her collection.

1. Brown Bear Brown Bear What Do You See

2. Polar Bear Polar Bear What Do You Hear

3. Good Night Moon

4. Good Night Gorilla

5. Silly Sally

6. Guess How Much I Love You

7. The Runaway Bunny

8. One Fish Two Fish Red Fish Blue Fish

9. The Foot Book

10. Go Dogs Go

11. The Very Hungry Caterpillar

12. Oh The Places You Will Go

13. Chicka Chicka Boom Boom

What are some of your favorite children's books?

Life Changes

You never really realize how quick a life can change. My Dad had a massive heart attack almost 3 weeks ago. I had just seen him on that Thursday and talked with him and everything was fine. Then Saturday afternoon Michael and I were at my grandparents house and Michael came in the room to tell me that my Mom had called and my Dad was having a heart attack. Just like that life changed. My Dad's life will never be the same again. It is just amazing to me that all the moments in life we take for granted. I never knew that Thursday would be the last time I saw my Dad pre- heart attack. My Dad has been held up at gun point 2 times and now had a massive heart attack. God must have great plans for my Dad!!

My Dad is doing really well. He has not smoked since that day, eating how he should, and doing his exercises. I'm just beyond blessed that my Dad is still here with us.

God is Awesome!!!

Jellybean

Jellybean and I had an appointment last week for another ultrasound. Just to continue to monitor the fluid on the Jellybean's kidneys. Everything looked great!!! The Dr. just thinks that Jellybean is small and has not grown into his/her kidneys. Jellybean is measuring in the 30% which the Dr. is fine with. She, said that someone has to have the 5lb baby and someone has to have the 9lb baby. She, said that if is was 10% or below she would be worried. Then, this past Friday had an appointment with my regular Dr. Parker. I LOVE her so much. She, is so sweet and always takes the time with me and makes sure that I leave her office understanding everything. I had to do that gestational diabetes test. I have heard from everyone that I know how awful the drink was and how it made them want to throw up. I got the fruit punch flavor and it was not great but not totally awful either. I mean it is not something I would want to drink every single day but I think I tolerated it pretty well. I will get results back in 4/5 days.

Things are going great with the pregnancy and I have to say that this far I have had a very easy pregnancy. I have enjoyed being pregnant except for the crying hormones. I feel I can just cry at the drop of a hat these days.

Pregnancy

So, far I have what I would consider to be a very easy pregnancy. In the first trimester I was really tired and had no energy for anything. Once, that passed I have been back to myself. It just seems strange to me that I'm almost 26 weeks pregnant and have only been to the Dr. 3 times. It seems everyone around me goes more than I do but I really love my Dr. I had a certain Dr. in the beginning but say a Dr. my last visit that I really liked. I will be seeing her again next Friday. I would love to be able to see her the rest of my pregnancy and she be the one to delivery our precious baby but I'm sure that is a slim chance of that happening.

The high risk Dr. I saw for last ultrasound I did not like at all. I'm praying this Friday that all is well with the ultrasound and jellybean so I do not have to see her again. She, just was not friendly and did not really offer a whole of encouragement. Should, I have to continue to see a high risk Dr. I'm going to ask for someone different in that practice.

I'm just praying that things will be well with jellybean and we can continue this pregnancy with no worries.

Cravings

I know one day I will want to look back and remember all the crazy cravings I had while preggo with jellybean.

1. Fried Pickles - from Zaxbys truly are a pregnant woman's best friend

2. Taco Bell - I have never liked Taco Bell but in the past few weeks I find myself thinking about it all the time. I have been good though and only eaten it 3 times. Not healthy for me or jellybean.

3. Orange Juice - I have always liked it but cannot get enough now.

4. Spicy food - the hotter the better

5. Chocolate - There are times I really feel I could eat nothing but chocolate all day long.

6. Fresh Fruit - I have beyond blown the grocery budget several weeks because off all the oranges, grapefruit, and cantaloupe that I have been eating.

I have done really well with my weight. I'm now 23 weeks preggo and still have yet to gain a pound.

Crazy Thoughts

I will be the first person to admit that have always been a worry wart! I worry about just anything one human can possibly worry about. It drives my husband batty that I worry all the time about anything. Heck, some days it even drives me bananas with all the worry thoughts running through my head. So, my thoughts this week are what if there is no heartbeat, what if something is wrong.?? I drive myself crazy with these thoughts!!!

I have not had an ultrasound since 7weeks because we declined the 12/14 week ultrasound because it was for genetic testing for downs. We, knew we could keep the baby no matter what and no sense in adding something else to my worry bucket!

So, Friday is the "BIG" ultrasound!!! I will be 2 days shy of 22 weeks when we see jellybean on Friday. Jellybean is going to be HUGE in comparison to the last time we saw he/she. We, will not be finding out what we are having. I'm beyond thrilled to have the surprise at birth!

Michael and I have planned that as our date day. We, are going to the ultrasound appointment, then regular check-up appointment, lunch somewhere nice and then to register!!! I'm beyond excited about our day on Friday. Just wish this week would hurry and get to Friday already!!!