I really really need to get back into blogging. I would love to have this as a something to look back on when H is older. Thought I would just update a little about me and my family for those who are new to reading. I comment on blogs all the time but never update mine.

I am a GA girl. I was born and raised in GA. I live 20 miles from my childhood home. I love the area we live in.

I have been married to my wonderful husband for 4yrs now. We met in college in a boring sociology class that I almost didn't take.

Our precious baby girl H was born on my birthday in the same hospital that I was born in. This June we will celebrate her 1st Birthday and my dreaded 30th birthday!

I am a stay at home mom and it is the hardest thing I have ever done but I LOVE it. I love being able to be with her and watch her learn/do new things.

I am a Christian and I love our church. I am really looking forward to getting more invovled and meeting new people.

I love to read and I mostly read "chick lit" books. I could read and read for hours. I got a Kindle for Mother's Day and love it.

That is just a little about me. I am dumb when it comes to technology. So, I hope to get help from the husband soon so I can upload pictures!!!

Happy Thursday All!!!

Hazley

We, had a beautiful baby GIRL!!!

Hazley Elizabeth
6lbs 13oz
21 1/4 inches

She, was born June 17th, 2010 on my birthday. I was born at the same hospital 29years ago.

I enjoy being a mommy more than I thought I would. It is a feeling that I cannot even begin to describe. I have fallen more in love with my husband seeing him with her. He is such an excellent Daddy. I love the both of them so much sometimes it hurts.

Will, post birth story when I have more time.

jellybean

Well, precious Jellybean you ejoyed being in Mommy's tummy so much we made it to 40weeks and 3days and (counting). I'm trying this right now as we are at the hospital waiting on you to make your grand apperance. You are stubborn just like Mommy and Daddy. We, checked into the hospital last night at 7:30 to start Cervadil. Mommy go no sleep what so ever because they kept on checking on me a million times!!! Oh well, you are so going to be worth it in the end. They took the Cervadil out at 6:00am and nothing had changed. I'm still 1-2cms dialted and 75% effaced and station 2. Cannot wait to meet you!!!

Right now I'm hooked up to a bunch of Ivs. We, are all just praying the pitocin starts to work soon. So, we can meet you today.

Mommy and Daddy Love you Bunches.

37 Weeks

1. Seems that Jellybean likes being in Mommy's tummy just fine these days. No, progress has been made! Jellybean is happy dancing in Mommy's tummy.

2. Some days I'm really ready to meet this precious child and pray that he/she comes soon. Other days I'm really worried, nervous, scared, etc... of labor/delivery.

3. One thing I'm really excited about is that I will have NO baby weight to lose once Jellybean makes his/her appearance. I weight than what I did before I got pregnant and once I lose the weight of the baby, fluid, placenta, etc... I will be really down in weight. Who would have ever thought pregnancy would have been a weight loss program for me.

4. I'm really hoping to keep up with the way I have been eating after Jellybean comes. Just keeping the portions in check and continuing to walk. It really is a healthier lifestyle than the one I was living before. I will eat things I have not been eating while pregnant but just plan on keeping the portions in check. I want to be a hot wife and momma!

5. Big question is will Jellybean come first or my birthday???!!!

Hope you all have a great weekend!!!

36 Week Appointment

1. Jellybean did great for the non-stress test on Monday. I really enjoy sitting there listening to his/her heartbeat during that time. It is really soothing knowing that Jellybean has a healthy heart.

2. Got to see Dr. Parker on Thursday who is my favorite Dr. in the practice!! She, thinks I've done awesome with maintaing my diet and blood sugars. She, said I can tell you really have taken it seriously and followed your meal plan. Made me feel proud of myself because some days it is really hard. I'm so thankful that through pray God has given me with will power and strength to do it.

3. The fluid is back on both of Jellybean's kidneys. Dr. Parker is not concerned because she said either baby had to go pee or since I'm making a huge effort to stay hydrated that could also be a cause. She, is not concerned because if it was a blockage than the fluid would not come and go like it has been. It was just shocking to hear it was back after it had been gone for so long. I'm at peace with it and know that Jellybean is going to be just fine. .

4. Jellybean likes being inside Mommy because my cervix is totally closed and hard. Also, Jellybean is really high because Dr. Parker was not able to feel his/her head.

5. Today is my last day of work and I'm kind of sad. I know raising my own child will be a million times more rewarding. I'm just going to go nuts sitting around the house waiting for Jellybean to make his/her appearance.

Favorite Books/Authors

Kelly's Korner is doing "Show us Your Life" in your Favorite Books Today.

I have always love to read and will read most anything that I can get my hands on. As, a child/teenager my Mom would take away the book I was ready as a punishment! I have always dreamed of reading to our children some day and hoping they share the same passion for reading as I do. I cannot wait for the arrival of our little one so I can start reading to him/her.

I will list my favorite Authors and my favorite books by each of them.

Favorite Books/Authors

1. Nicholas Sparks : Message in a Bottle, The Last Song, The Choice, and The Notebook

2. Karen Kingsbury: Redemption Series

3. Jennifer Weiner: Good in Bed, Little Earthquakes, and In Her Shoes

4. Emily Giffin: Something Blue, Something Borrowed, and Baby Proof (she also happens to be from GA)

5. Debbie Macomber: Blossom Street Series

6. Francine Rivers: The Atonement Child and A Lineage of Grace

7. Sophie Kinsella: Shopaholic Series, Remember Me, and Undomestic Goddess

These are just a few of my favorite authors. I could go on and one for days. I just love reading!!!

New Mommy Worries

I'm sure my worries are nothing different than any other first time Mom. I do really good at praying for my worries and managing them. Although, as time gets closer it seems my worries are there more.

1. I worry about labor/delivery. I know women's' bodies are made to birth babies and has been done since the beginning of time. I have amazing Drs and mid-wife that I know will take care of my and our precious child. Its just some days when I have too much "thinking time" on my hands I worry. I'm beyond scared of a c-section. I cannot even begin to describe how scared of a c-section I am.

2. I want to breastfeed more than anything in the world. I worry about will I be able too. Will I have enough milk. Even though have access to a hospital that has more Lactation Specialists than any other hospital in the country. I still worry. Stupid "thinking time."

3. I know this sounds silly but I worry about the names we have picked out. I don't want our child to hate the names we have picked out. I want them to love them as much as Daddy and I do. I know crazy worry but again "thinking time."

4. I worry about upsetting people if I really don't want visitors one day. I worry that if I say I just need some space from visitors that I will hurt someones feelings!

I know that God will give me the strength to handle any situation as long as I put my trust in him. He has so far this pregnancy and I have no reason that I should doubt him! Just some days I have too much "thinking time."

Updates

1. I'm now 35weeks along with precious Jellybean. I fall more in love with him/her each day. I cannot wait to meet Jellybean.

2. Things so far have gone well with the gestational diabetes. I'm still managing it with diet and exercise. Although, some days I get totally frustrated and just want to break down and eat whatever I want I keep on going. I have to say I miss cereal the most. I could live off of cereal and not to have it I'm about to go crazy. I've already told Michael I want the house stocked with tons of different kinds of cereal when I come home from hospital.

3. Michael gave me some sweet cards for Mother's Day and a really sweet willow tree figurine. It is a mother holding her baby.

4. I keep changing my mind about furniture for Jellybean's nursery. Michael has been so patient with me in the whole process.

5. I'm excited that for the most part the nursery is done. It needs the curtains hung and some things hung on the wall and then it is done.

6. I really wish we had some extra money to just go somewhere for a couple of nights before Jellybean comes. Oh well, a person can dream.

Baby Names

Kelly's Korner is doing "Show us your life in Baby Names today.

I thought it would be fun to give a list of names that I have always liked. I will not be giving away the names we have picked for Jellybean.

Girls

1. Lana

2. Paisley (means woman of the church or woman of God)

3. Isla

4. Hope

5. Nahla ( i liked this name way before Halle Berry ever used it.)

6. Ivy

7. Scarlett

There are very few girls names that my husband and I agree on. We, can agree on boy's names all day long.

Boys

1. Walker

2. Sawyer

3. Holden

4. Archer

5. Lance

6. Lucas ( I would always want it to be Lucas though never Luke)

7. Ryker

Our boy's middle name is Robert after my grandfather. The girl's middle name will be Elizabeth after my great-grandmother's mother.

Hope you all have a great weekend!!!

Oh Jellybean Oh Jellybean. The things you are already putting me through. I sure hope it means you are going to be the best baby on the block. You put me through some scares when I don't feel you move for awhile. You really move a lot after I have eaten something. You scored the highest possible score on the non-stress test that I had on Tuesday and with the crazy diet I'm having to eat I'm still doing well with my blood sugars. I now weigh less than I did before I got pregnant with you. I guess so much for me having to lose the "baby weight."

Mommy already LOVES you so much. I cannot wait to hold you and kiss you. I cannot wait to see Daddy holding you. You finally moved the other night so Daddy got to feel you move. He was so happy and I was so excited he finally got to experience that. You are stubborn and only move when you want to.

Mommy and Daddy already love you lots.

Gestational Diabetes

So, I've been diagnosed with gestational diabetes. Hearing the news from the nurse was really hard for me. I got off the phone with her and cried for almost two hours. I just felt it was all my fault that my body was failing this baby and had I not been overweight before getting pregnant than I would not be in this position. I had a lot of self hate that day. I went on with my day and got a more positive attitude about things as time went on. I know that I can do this. I know that I will do whatever it takes to bring Jellybean into this world healthy. I've been following the new eating plan for the past two days. I'm doing really well on it. My after meal numbers are always really good but for some reason my morning fasting number is always really off. I have a dr's appointment on Monday so I guess that will be something I go over with the Dr. I just get frustrated in the mornings with that number when I do everything I'm supposed to and still get a bad reading in the morning. I just want to do everything right for my health and for Jellybean's health.

Michael and I got to see precious Jellybean on Friday. Jellybean was just happy and moving around. Jellybean's kidneys are doing really well. One kidney is now normal and the other kidney is just 0.1 over in the fluid level numbers. So, Jellybean is growing into his/her kidneys.

I really wish that Jellybean would move a lot so that Michael could feel him/her moving. I think it would be really neat for him to experience.

Books

Oh, how I cannot wait to ready to Jellybean. I'm a huge reader and have always had a huge LOVE for books. I have always said that a child can have too many toys but a child can never have too many books. I remember sitting in Piper's bed and just reading to her for an hour. I cannot wait to be able to do that with Jellybean. I've already started a book collection for our precious Jellybean. Oh, the joy and happiness it brings me to be able to buy Jellybean books.

I thought I would list a few of my favorite children's books. That are either already in Jellybeans book collection or will soon be in his/her collection.

1. Brown Bear Brown Bear What Do You See

2. Polar Bear Polar Bear What Do You Hear

3. Good Night Moon

4. Good Night Gorilla

5. Silly Sally

6. Guess How Much I Love You

7. The Runaway Bunny

8. One Fish Two Fish Red Fish Blue Fish

9. The Foot Book

10. Go Dogs Go

11. The Very Hungry Caterpillar

12. Oh The Places You Will Go

13. Chicka Chicka Boom Boom

What are some of your favorite children's books?

Life Changes

You never really realize how quick a life can change. My Dad had a massive heart attack almost 3 weeks ago. I had just seen him on that Thursday and talked with him and everything was fine. Then Saturday afternoon Michael and I were at my grandparents house and Michael came in the room to tell me that my Mom had called and my Dad was having a heart attack. Just like that life changed. My Dad's life will never be the same again. It is just amazing to me that all the moments in life we take for granted. I never knew that Thursday would be the last time I saw my Dad pre- heart attack. My Dad has been held up at gun point 2 times and now had a massive heart attack. God must have great plans for my Dad!!

My Dad is doing really well. He has not smoked since that day, eating how he should, and doing his exercises. I'm just beyond blessed that my Dad is still here with us.

God is Awesome!!!

Jellybean

Jellybean and I had an appointment last week for another ultrasound. Just to continue to monitor the fluid on the Jellybean's kidneys. Everything looked great!!! The Dr. just thinks that Jellybean is small and has not grown into his/her kidneys. Jellybean is measuring in the 30% which the Dr. is fine with. She, said that someone has to have the 5lb baby and someone has to have the 9lb baby. She, said that if is was 10% or below she would be worried. Then, this past Friday had an appointment with my regular Dr. Parker. I LOVE her so much. She, is so sweet and always takes the time with me and makes sure that I leave her office understanding everything. I had to do that gestational diabetes test. I have heard from everyone that I know how awful the drink was and how it made them want to throw up. I got the fruit punch flavor and it was not great but not totally awful either. I mean it is not something I would want to drink every single day but I think I tolerated it pretty well. I will get results back in 4/5 days.

Things are going great with the pregnancy and I have to say that this far I have had a very easy pregnancy. I have enjoyed being pregnant except for the crying hormones. I feel I can just cry at the drop of a hat these days.

Pregnancy

So, far I have what I would consider to be a very easy pregnancy. In the first trimester I was really tired and had no energy for anything. Once, that passed I have been back to myself. It just seems strange to me that I'm almost 26 weeks pregnant and have only been to the Dr. 3 times. It seems everyone around me goes more than I do but I really love my Dr. I had a certain Dr. in the beginning but say a Dr. my last visit that I really liked. I will be seeing her again next Friday. I would love to be able to see her the rest of my pregnancy and she be the one to delivery our precious baby but I'm sure that is a slim chance of that happening.

The high risk Dr. I saw for last ultrasound I did not like at all. I'm praying this Friday that all is well with the ultrasound and jellybean so I do not have to see her again. She, just was not friendly and did not really offer a whole of encouragement. Should, I have to continue to see a high risk Dr. I'm going to ask for someone different in that practice.

I'm just praying that things will be well with jellybean and we can continue this pregnancy with no worries.

Cravings

I know one day I will want to look back and remember all the crazy cravings I had while preggo with jellybean.

1. Fried Pickles - from Zaxbys truly are a pregnant woman's best friend

2. Taco Bell - I have never liked Taco Bell but in the past few weeks I find myself thinking about it all the time. I have been good though and only eaten it 3 times. Not healthy for me or jellybean.

3. Orange Juice - I have always liked it but cannot get enough now.

4. Spicy food - the hotter the better

5. Chocolate - There are times I really feel I could eat nothing but chocolate all day long.

6. Fresh Fruit - I have beyond blown the grocery budget several weeks because off all the oranges, grapefruit, and cantaloupe that I have been eating.

I have done really well with my weight. I'm now 23 weeks preggo and still have yet to gain a pound.

Crazy Thoughts

I will be the first person to admit that have always been a worry wart! I worry about just anything one human can possibly worry about. It drives my husband batty that I worry all the time about anything. Heck, some days it even drives me bananas with all the worry thoughts running through my head. So, my thoughts this week are what if there is no heartbeat, what if something is wrong.?? I drive myself crazy with these thoughts!!!

I have not had an ultrasound since 7weeks because we declined the 12/14 week ultrasound because it was for genetic testing for downs. We, knew we could keep the baby no matter what and no sense in adding something else to my worry bucket!

So, Friday is the "BIG" ultrasound!!! I will be 2 days shy of 22 weeks when we see jellybean on Friday. Jellybean is going to be HUGE in comparison to the last time we saw he/she. We, will not be finding out what we are having. I'm beyond thrilled to have the surprise at birth!

Michael and I have planned that as our date day. We, are going to the ultrasound appointment, then regular check-up appointment, lunch somewhere nice and then to register!!! I'm beyond excited about our day on Friday. Just wish this week would hurry and get to Friday already!!!

Overwhelmed

Most days I just go through the day and I'm fine. Then, some days it hits me like a ton of bricks of all the stuff I need to get done before jellybean comes. All the decisions that come with getting some of the stuff done. I know it is normal to feel this way but some days it can be a bit much.

1. I need to find a good vaccine book and starting reading and doing all the research so Michael and I can make the decisions on vaccines that we feel is best for our child.

2. I want to breastfeed and I know I need to be reading a book about it because. I'm sure the book gives ideas on how to start getting my nipples tough so it is not as painful. I just want to feel prepared.

3. I need to finish cleaning out the nursery so whoever is going to help paint it can get started. I've done a lot just about another 2 hours and I will be done.

4. We, have finally agreed on a girls name that we both LOVE and really LOVE the meaning. Nope, not telling the name either. It is our secret.

5. We, still have not registered yet but plan on doing that next Friday after our ultrasound appointment. I have done the research on the safe car seats and good monitors. So, I feel prepared for that. Just still I'm sure when we get there will more decisions to make than I thought possible.

6. I have to finish getting all the addresses together for the baby shower invitations.

I know this is all stuff I can do just feel overwhelmed at times. This to shall pass!!!

Names

Michael and I do not have a name picked out for a girl. We, have a name we both really like but it is too popular for my tastes. It is a really sweet name and we would call her something different but still. I like different non-popular or tradition names. We, have had a boy's name since right after we found out I was pregnant. We, can agree on almost every single boy's name but cannot agree on a girl's name.

So, I'm looking for suggestions on girls' names. Keep in mind we like different but not too strange if that makes since!

17 week Appointment

I had my appointment with the mid-wife yesterday. I have to say I enjoyed my appointment with her way better than with my ob. I felt she really took the time to explain things to me and did not make me feel stupid with my questions. I have only gained 1/2 a pound but she said it could have been the clothes I was wearing so she is not even calling it a weight gain. She, is fine with the fact I have not gained much weight since I started out heavier to begin with. All, my blood work came back great. She, said I have a really great immune system. The only thing is I have Onegative blood which is really rare and I can only receive Onegative blood. So, starting at 24 weeks since I have a negative blood type I will start receiving shots so the baby does not reject my blood. I go back February 5th, for the BIG ultrasound but we are NOT finding out what we are having!!! I'm beyond thrilled for jellybean to remain a surprise until birth. I'm really excited to start putting the nursery together soon. Guess, that means I really need to finish cleaning that room out!!!

I feel beyond blessed to have so far had a very easy and healthy pregnancy. I appreciate all the prayers that have been said for me and this precious miracle I'm carrying.

Hope everyone has a great week!!!