Overwhelmed

Most days I just go through the day and I'm fine. Then, some days it hits me like a ton of bricks of all the stuff I need to get done before jellybean comes. All the decisions that come with getting some of the stuff done. I know it is normal to feel this way but some days it can be a bit much.

1. I need to find a good vaccine book and starting reading and doing all the research so Michael and I can make the decisions on vaccines that we feel is best for our child.

2. I want to breastfeed and I know I need to be reading a book about it because. I'm sure the book gives ideas on how to start getting my nipples tough so it is not as painful. I just want to feel prepared.

3. I need to finish cleaning out the nursery so whoever is going to help paint it can get started. I've done a lot just about another 2 hours and I will be done.

4. We, have finally agreed on a girls name that we both LOVE and really LOVE the meaning. Nope, not telling the name either. It is our secret.

5. We, still have not registered yet but plan on doing that next Friday after our ultrasound appointment. I have done the research on the safe car seats and good monitors. So, I feel prepared for that. Just still I'm sure when we get there will more decisions to make than I thought possible.

6. I have to finish getting all the addresses together for the baby shower invitations.

I know this is all stuff I can do just feel overwhelmed at times. This to shall pass!!!

Names

Michael and I do not have a name picked out for a girl. We, have a name we both really like but it is too popular for my tastes. It is a really sweet name and we would call her something different but still. I like different non-popular or tradition names. We, have had a boy's name since right after we found out I was pregnant. We, can agree on almost every single boy's name but cannot agree on a girl's name.

So, I'm looking for suggestions on girls' names. Keep in mind we like different but not too strange if that makes since!

17 week Appointment

I had my appointment with the mid-wife yesterday. I have to say I enjoyed my appointment with her way better than with my ob. I felt she really took the time to explain things to me and did not make me feel stupid with my questions. I have only gained 1/2 a pound but she said it could have been the clothes I was wearing so she is not even calling it a weight gain. She, is fine with the fact I have not gained much weight since I started out heavier to begin with. All, my blood work came back great. She, said I have a really great immune system. The only thing is I have Onegative blood which is really rare and I can only receive Onegative blood. So, starting at 24 weeks since I have a negative blood type I will start receiving shots so the baby does not reject my blood. I go back February 5th, for the BIG ultrasound but we are NOT finding out what we are having!!! I'm beyond thrilled for jellybean to remain a surprise until birth. I'm really excited to start putting the nursery together soon. Guess, that means I really need to finish cleaning that room out!!!

I feel beyond blessed to have so far had a very easy and healthy pregnancy. I appreciate all the prayers that have been said for me and this precious miracle I'm carrying.

Hope everyone has a great week!!!

2009 in Review

Wow, where has this year gone???!!! 2009 has been a year of ups and downs but I have to say it has been a blessed year for us.

Just some highlights of our 2009

1. Michael took a new job in March!!! We, feel blessed God provided him with this job and are excited about the doors it might open for his career in the future.

2. I did the hardest thing I have ever done in leaving Piper in August. Some days I still cry that I do not see her every day. I enjoyed being her nanny for 3yrs and leaving was so hard.

3. We, took an awesome trip to the beach with great friends. Enjoyed our time as a couple and with our friends. Nothing is more relaxing than a day at the beach.

4. The church we had fallen in love with went through some changes that we did not agree with. So, we are still looking for a new church to call home. I miss some of the people but I know God has a place waiting for us at a new church.

5. In August I started losing all faith in God and got really depressed. I knew the mark of two years of TTC was creeping up on us and had lots of anger towards God. Michael grew worried and felt helpless. I made a appointment with a dr. to start the process of discussing fertility options.

6. On October 19th, I took 5 home pregnancy tests and confirmed that I was pregnant!!! We, were both really thrilled. Michael was beyond excited and happy. I was more shocked and nervous.

7. Michael, my Grandfather, and I traveled to Nashville for Thanksgiving to meet up with Aunt, Uncle and cousin. This Thanksgiving is one of my all time favorite Thanksgivings. I am hoping it becomes a tradition to travel somewhere with them each Thanksgiving.

8. Christmas was great. I feel blessed to have such an awesome husband and family who spoiled me with great gifts for Christmas.

9. We, are now in NC to celebrate Christmas with more family and ring in the New Year with them. I feel blessed with all the family we have.

Praying everyone has a blessed 2010.

13week Appointment

So, I had my big "ob work up appointment" on December 11th. Everything went fine!!! They are happy with my weight for now. I did have some concerns about the bleeding. The Dr. told me that I just have a really sensitive cervix. When, she did the exam I bled like crazy and for a few days after. She, told us that is was nothing to be concerned with and that everything looked fine. Got to hear jellybean's heartbeat. Jellybean's heartbeat was 165 which is exactly what is was the last time. The fun part came at the very end which was having to give 8 vials of blood. I had not eaten lunch yet so they took the blood on a very empty stomach. I got the worst headache afterwards too. I went home and took a really long nap and still woke up with the same headache. My next appointment is January 6th. Which, they will go over the blood work and any concerns I might have.

The past few days I have felt jellybean moving around. It has not been a jab or anything like that. It really feels like bubbles or popcorn. It is really hard to describe. I really feel jellybean the most after I eat something spicy. Which, I cannot get enough spicy food. I could live off of chips and hot salsa!!

We, were at Babies R Us the other day just browsing and we got our bedding. I was so excited I could have cried in the store. It is the bedding I have always wanted and it was on clearance because they are discontinuing the line. So, we got a $299.99 bedding set for $104.79 and that is including tax. I was so excited!!!

That is the link for the bedding!!

http://www.albeebaby.com/wendy-bellissimo-honey-bee-5-piece-crib-bedding-set.html

The room is going to be a green to match the green gingham in the bedding.

Michael and I have been beyond blessed with not having to buy a single piece of furniture for the nursery. The family I nannied for 3yrs gave us there changing table, a family I watch now is giving us the crib, a lady I know through the play group I took Piper too is giving us a glider and ottaman, and my aunt and uncle have an old dresser they are not using. So, we feel very blessed to have such awesome people in our lives.

Hope everyone has a Very Merry Christmas.

Wow, it really has been a long time since I have posted on here. Not having Internet at home really limits my time of when I can get on.

Well, for those of you that have followed for awhile know that my husband and I tried for 2yrs to have a baby.

Well, I'm happy to say that I am PREGNANT!!! I am not 12 weeks pregnant and doing great. I feel beyond blessed to be pregnant with our little miracle baby. I have felt good for the most part. I do get tired very easily!!!

In the beginning I had a lot of food aversions but now I am fine to eat whatever. Some smells though still really get to me and upset my stomach. I am thankful to have never had morning sickness but now in the past week I seem to be getting an upset stomach a lot after eating. Not really sure what is happening with that.

My next appointment is Dec. 11th so I will update after that appointment!!!

I really want to use this blog now as a journal of the pregnancy and for when the baby comes.

Fertility

We, have now passed the TTC 2yr mark. Some days are a lot easier than others. There are times a week can go by and I do not even think about it and then there are days it is always on my mind. I have been through the sad/depression part of the whole 2yrs. but right now I think I am at the questioning/anger stage!! Like I find myself asking why does God give the Duggars' 19 children but I am praying for just ONE??? Why does God give all the unmarried, non-Christian, Hollywood people babies? We, are a Christian family and the child would be raised with loving parents in a great Christian household but still no baby? Why did God give me this HUGE heart for children when I cannot even get pregnant with our own?? These, are questions I find myself asking on those days I have too much time to think. I'm always asking why them and not me??? I think I need a facebook break because if I read about one more pregnancy announcement I might just go crazy!!! I just do not understand. I know that things happen all in God's perfect time but it still does not make the waiting time any easier!!!

I have an appointment Oct.26th and I am praying for answers!!!